just when things seemed to be getting better…
I find out that the one and only girl that I actually and really like is dating more than a couple guys since I started talking to her. I have lived in Georgia for two years, and just when I meet someone I really like, this happens.
I’ve never even kissed her before because I was gonna take her somewhere and make it special you know? oh wells.
oh, and state farm sent me a $50 dollar check for my car. not $1500. so I am fucked on that too.
I couldnt name anything awesome going on in my life right now. I can even name one.
fml.
Everytime I visit home
Its the same thing. How many time have I driven and taken flights to come visit.
But after all of those times and all of the miles I have driven to visit, you wont go the extra mile for me.
Its whats more convenient for you. After a few times, I figured it would change but obviously not.
That shit gets old so fast, I’m not calling next time I’m in town.
Yeah, I drove down all of those times to sit in hotel rooms.
I think I’m out of my funk
I’m not gonna lie, I have been super depressed.
I lost my baby(my car), biz is slow, not a lot of eventful things going on…just the same shit everyday.
And I have been single, by choice, for awhile. Since I moved to Georgia, I haven’t found anyone that I really liked. And I think the problem has been solved.
I kinda feel like a little kid again. Even with it being that we have only hung out at my place due to my current situation, it’s still have been great 
Look, I could go on and on but yeah.
I’m happy
So I met this girl
and I’ve been seeing her almost every day, and I think I like her. Like…like like kinda like.
I know, real shocker considering how picky I am and how I haven’t found anyone that I really like in Georgia.
So we’ll see!
I want kids
Eventually but attached with it are so many fears. And I don’t know why I worry about this when I am 21. I know I would make a great dad but I don’t like talking about it with people. Because my dad wasn’t much of a dad, dosen’t mean you should give me advise on how to raise them or what I should do. I have had from my childhood till now tp think about it, I got this.
But I’d be scared to have a kid and have to fight with custody if something happened with the wife. I think that is one of my reasons why I am so picky about who I date. I’m not looking for a wife at 21, lol. but why would I want to date someone I couldn’t see myself being with in the long run? For fun? I find it pointless. Because I’m like this, will cause me to be single for some time but it’s like a love/hate kinda thing.
Just thinking out loud.
What are your views about this? Comment.
I uploaded a video of you
on youtube tonight, and I have never seen the video. I guess I just saved it to my hard drive after recording it and lost it. Years later, I still miss everything about it and still to this day I hate myself for messing it up.
While watching the video, I wish it had kept playing and playing. =/
You dont get it
You don’t get how beautiful you are and how amazing you are. Yet you surround yourself around the trashiest, most low, and drama filled people anyways tho.
You, my friend, is only hell of a catch 22.
